A couple of weeks ago I was asked to be an Illustrious Presenter(speaker) at the 12th International Amazonian Shamanism Conference in Iquitos Peru! I was like huh? Me??? I went to check out the website and the other speakers they have so far and started reading their bio's. I mean Dennis McKenna & Graham Hancock were speakers in the past! Psychologists, parapsychologist, neurophysiologist, ethnobotanist and other experts speak at this event.
I had all these thoughts running through my head. I started comparing myself to them as far as history, education, travel and Ayahuasca experience overall. I mean afterall, I only first heard about it a few years ago. What was he asking me for??? So I asked him. It went a little something like this....
Me- "Why me? I mean, I'm not an expert like these other speakers. Im not an expert on anything except my love of life and my love for this medicine path."
Him- "There's your answer. I've been following you on FB for a while now."
I sat there marinating in that for a while. Years of mental and emotional conditioning had me in a tailspin. Here I was being given an opportunity of a lifetime. An opportunity involving something I have more passion for than anything in my life besides my daughter and in creeps the old bullshit stories! I was doing one of the worst things possible.....comparing myself to others and going down the rabbit hole of doubt.
'What will others think of me?' 'I know so many people more qualified than I am to speak there.' 'Can I afford this trip after Costa Rica?' Blah blah blah....
So I did what anyone in their right mind would do....I called a friend that has a dragon for a spirit animal and believes in unicorns for support. Haha! True story. After some support and encouraging words from my amazing sisters I chilled the fuck out and realized that the truth is that I was asked because he saw something in me that he thought could contribute to the conference. The truth is I have been manifesting this for two years. The truth is I deserve to travel and speak about things I am passionate about. The truth is I am worthy of being heard. The truth is....this is all a big dream anyway and I get to create it anyway I want.
When opportunity knocks at your door, you answer the damn door my friends! And you say YES!!!!